I've Fallen In Love...

With my NEW BODY!

I can't stop looking in the mirror and who knew I would love my bones sticking out in places I can't remember even existed!

I just about passed out this morning...trying on my size 32 Juicy Skirt! IT FIT! I never thought this new life would exist for me. I was so obsessed with the way I looked...and I hated myself for it! I lost control of ME! Now I am back and back in full force baby!

I keep saying I wish I had done it sooner but sooner we were not financially stable and we would not have been able to afford it. It would have been so much more stressfull...trying to lose weight and figuring out a way to pay for it!

I get scared sometimes like something will happen to the band and it will have to be removed but I have to remind myself that everything is going to be ok. Its like its too good to be TRUE! IS IT? Can I be happy, skinny and feel good about myself? My mom is a major worry wort and I have inherited this trait! I know, LUCKY ME!


I have two confessions....


1. I was at Ikea the other day, had two bites of those damn hotdogs that are so good and CHEAP and I felt the tightness....ready? I was with my daughter, could not make it to the loo and I had to vomit in one of the display kitchen sinks! CAN ANYONE BEAT THAT?? You should have seen my daughter's face...luckily she is only 6 and hopefully forgot about it pretty fast! To make matters worse a family was coming by to see the kitchen and I had to quickly cover it up! Who said this was the easy way out???

2. A few years back, we had very little money and I was attempting another magic weight loss system - LA Weightloss...Anyone hear about this? Well I had to pay a ton of money up front and I didn't have it...so I pawned my gorgeous gold necklace and bracelet that my mil gave me for my engagement. I think about it all the time and it hurts me. Needless to say I could never wear it cause it was too tight around my FAT neck but now it would look gorgeous! It hurts my feelings when I think about it. I have not told anyone and I know all you beautiful people will understand my pain.


I do feel better....


Happy 4th of July to all you sessy ladies and gents south of the BORDER!

My ONEDERLAND goal gift you ask?

Here it is...In a SIZE medium which is equivalent to a 6-8 - which I will be sporting in Mexico next Spring - SKINNY BITCH STARDOM here I COME!

ONEDERFREAKINLANDBABY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't know whether to cry, scream or smile! I did all three!

ONEDERLAND!!!!

I am so proud of myself. 3lbs in less than a week and I did it baby!

If you are just starting out and reading this, you WILL DO IT and you WILL GET THERE! TRUST ME! Its just like getting a new car...takes a bit before you get into the groove and figure the felion out!

I would never have thought this 4 months ago!

4 months, 33 lbs and 71 followers - wow, who knew my life would be like this? I keep saying it over and over...without all of your support, I honestly would not have been able to do this!

So....THANK YOU!

I keep thinking in my head where I wanna go too...like my goal weight. I was around 130 when I got married (13years ago) and yeah I looked great but I think it may be too skinny. Oh my did I say that? I even said a size 12 designer would be my goal. My 14 Juicy's are a little lose and I am loving it! So I am thinking 150lbs! Don't even know what I would look like. Its been so DAMN long!

My next goal...5lbs per month and to be 185 by the end of September!

4 months ago I would say to myself that its not realistic - well SHUT the F up baby...cause 180's here I COME!

Hugs and Kisses to a beautiful Wednesday...the sun is shining and my smile is so addicting!

Bandiversary....

4 Months and 30lbs! I got on the scale today without realizing that it was my bandiversary! 202lbs! Only 3 away from my goal of ONEDERLAND!

I was so scared to get on it...its just something that is programmed into my head...fear of the damn and dreaded scale! I am working my best trying to conquer that fear! WORKING...

My goal was to get to ONEDERLAND before the end of June...I offically have 1 week and I KNOW I CAN DO IT!

Damn skinnyness feels soooo good. I could just imagine what a skinny bitch feels like...one day!

I am officially wearing my Juicy with pride and my head held up HIGH!

I look into the mirror as I walk by everyday about 5-10 times. I have a big ass one floor one in my living room. Somedays I see the thinner me and somedays I don't. I have to remind myself how well I have done - 30lbs in 4 months - never would have happened on my own!

I still have not told my mom or mother in law...only people that know are my sisters and husband. I am so afraid cause I don't want people thinking I took the easy way out and this is definitely NO EASY WAY OUT! I dream about diving into a pizza or burger or better yet a big ass smokie...not happening! Some days it is so hard for me to register. Definitely a work in progress thing again. Man, I have a lot of WORK to do! Brain work that is!

Getting my pedi done this weekend and my babe and I are going out for dinner to celebrate our 13th wedding anniversary!

Oh yeah, my son is going on his first road trip...heading to Whistler with a friend for a hockey tourney. Slightly nervous...stay TUNED!

I could not have done this journey without all you amazing peeps! Have a beautiful Thursday!

Does Anyone...

Get a pain on their left side after they eat??????

Still Recovering...

From Vacation. Only a 3 hour time change but I may need a week or so to adjust back! I am tired!

So I got on the scale this morning...of course SCARED! I got on and bam 203! Down a couple of pounds! I was hoping for ONEDERLAND! I need to get back into the excercise regimen! We did a lot of walking but I need to start SWEATING! Kinda craving it. Crazy eh?

I was so worried about getting stuck or having any issues while away...I was lucky enough to get thru the 10 days with only one little glitch. Eating POUTINE at a burger joint in Montreal! I was craving it, hungry and bam. The poor waiter kept asking me if I wanted another meal since I was not eating what was in front of me. No pb'ing or sliming or anything. Just felt tight and had to pace myself.

Our family from Montreal and Toronto said we eat like chickens! Too funny! All the food was so delicious!

Here are some photos...

Downtown Toronto

Downtown Montreal

Gretzky's Winery

I'm back....

And missed each and everyone of you! I had no internet access so I couldn't even catch up! Mama's got a lot of reading to do.

Stay tuned for pictures and a POST!

Cheers!

Vacation Babyy!

Officially starts in 15 minutes!
10 days of no morning crap (getting the kids dressed and out of the house), no laundry, no cleaning up after everyone and no tidying up like a crazy woman!

Yuppers...10 days!

5 days will be spent in Toronto (my son has a hockey tournament) and 5 days will be spent in Montreal! All of my mother in law's family is in Toronto and we have so much fun whenever we visit.

She has never been to Montreal and I am excited to be taking her! She turns 75 this year!

Can't forget the box, I mean big ass box of cookies she has made to ship as luggage! She called me in a panic..."how many bags can we check in?" Priceless!

Don't know how or where I will find a computer...hopefully I will be able to connect somewhere! I will miss all of your daily posts!

XoXoXoXoXO!