With my NEW BODY!
I can't stop looking in the mirror and who knew I would love my bones sticking out in places I can't remember even existed!
I just about passed out this morning...trying on my size 32 Juicy Skirt! IT FIT! I never thought this new life would exist for me. I was so obsessed with the way I looked...and I hated myself for it! I lost control of ME! Now I am back and back in full force baby!
I keep saying I wish I had done it sooner but sooner we were not financially stable and we would not have been able to afford it. It would have been so much more stressfull...trying to lose weight and figuring out a way to pay for it!
I get scared sometimes like something will happen to the band and it will have to be removed but I have to remind myself that everything is going to be ok. Its like its too good to be TRUE! IS IT? Can I be happy, skinny and feel good about myself? My mom is a major worry wort and I have inherited this trait! I know, LUCKY ME!
I have two confessions....
1. I was at Ikea the other day, had two bites of those damn hotdogs that are so good and CHEAP and I felt the tightness....ready? I was with my daughter, could not make it to the loo and I had to vomit in one of the display kitchen sinks! CAN ANYONE BEAT THAT?? You should have seen my daughter's face...luckily she is only 6 and hopefully forgot about it pretty fast! To make matters worse a family was coming by to see the kitchen and I had to quickly cover it up! Who said this was the easy way out???
2. A few years back, we had very little money and I was attempting another magic weight loss system - LA Weightloss...Anyone hear about this? Well I had to pay a ton of money up front and I didn't have it...so I pawned my gorgeous gold necklace and bracelet that my mil gave me for my engagement. I think about it all the time and it hurts me. Needless to say I could never wear it cause it was too tight around my FAT neck but now it would look gorgeous! It hurts my feelings when I think about it. I have not told anyone and I know all you beautiful people will understand my pain.
I do feel better....
Happy 4th of July to all you sessy ladies and gents south of the BORDER!
My ONEDERLAND goal gift you ask?
Here it is...In a SIZE medium which is equivalent to a 6-8 - which I will be sporting in Mexico next Spring - SKINNY BITCH STARDOM here I COME!