Saturday, May 29, 2010
Doesn't help that I am eating out both times with friends that have no clue that I have had the surgery. I get stressed just thinking about it. I know its only 3 months in and my body will eventually adjust but it seems like every meal is a test. What works and what doesn't! WHO knew I could easily throw up!! Oh my!! I also dont want to be hurting/damaging my esophogas or anything.
Looks like rice and pasta are OUT! But hold on...I had some pork dumplings last night and no probs! WTF?? Who said this was easy??
This is what I ate:
Tall Vanilla Latte and a biscotti
Junior Chicken Burgen (took about half an hour to eat)
Piece of Ham and Pineapple Pizza
Some Veggies and Dip
Wow, not a great food day at all!
Could I be too tight or is the stress making me tighter??
Friday, May 28, 2010
Hope everyone gets to go out and enjoy themselves this weekend!
My sweet hubby is in Vegas...miss him terribly. 2 More sleeps...2 more sleeps!
1. If you could be a flower, which one would it be and why?
Peonies...gorgeous and absolutely breathtaking...UMMM just like me!
2. Which Sex and The City Character do you most relate to?
A little Mr.Big and the best walk in closet in the world never hurts!
3. If you had a crystal ball or could know one thing about the future - what would it be?
My kids and husband and I are healthy and happy till we are in our 90's!
4. What's your biggest fear in your weight loss journey?
It will make me sick or it will have to be taken out!
5. Whose blog or comment spoke to you the most this week and why?
Sandy Lee and her love life!
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Sometimes it is just so damn frustrating, I wanna scream!
Sucks cause yesterday I was celebrating 25lbs gone and today I am upset! All the crazy ups and downs of bandland!
I have a headache now...gonna go lay down!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
That's right ladies and gentlemen...25lbs as of today and my 3 month bandiversary! I cannot remember the last time I felt this great and so damn comfortable in my own skin!
So what has happened in the last 3 months...started my two week pre-op on Feb 10th, had surgery on the 24th and asked myself what the hell did I get myself into...did not want to deal with the pain. Low and behold I survived! I have not looked back since! Slow and steady weightloss.
First fill April 6th - again scared shitless and of course not required - again I survived! Lost some more poundage...slow and steady. Then I did the 30 challenge - 30 days, 30 minutes of excercise a day - whipped my ass in shape! Hell ya!
Second Fill May 5th to 6cc's and its been lovely ever since...actually I lied - control wise, very good but had a few pb episodes and left chest shoulder pain - again I survived. Feels like my sweet spot but I know I will want a fill down the road. Will wait it out. I need to remind myself that this is NOT a game and more of a whole lifestyle change...slow and steady! Just the way momma likes it...if you know what I mean!
Ooops I forgot...during all this transformation, there has been a lot of tooting and more tooting and more tooting! Nice eh! My GAS-X is my friend. Who would have known. I definitely miss my s shaped bowel movements. Doesn't get any better than that!Excercise has been ok...not overly aggressive but back with the trainer and she is gonna kick my ass. I am scared as I type this! How can a skinny little bitch be so damn powerful????
Its Victoria Day weekend here in beautiful British Columbia and of course Canada! Sandy from http://rollercoasterdieting.blogspot.com/ gave the best history/backup - MAY 2-4! Hell ya, its when the patio furniture, bbq's, food and alcohol come out of the closets and we are officially in Spring and getting ready for a HOT and SUNNY summer! But of course we are at the rink today...the finals for the hockey tourney. So proud of my son...he is rocking it! They WON gold!! Yey!! We are heading to Toronto next week for the Ronald McDonald Tournament. Its gonna be a blast!
Again a shout out to all of you...56 followers and you are all so special. I could not do this without you. You have been a blessing! Have a fantabulous day and enjoy the SUN!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I am finding deals online like MAD and I get all excited about getting the package and then trying it on!
I think I need help...instead of being obsessed about food 24/7, I am turning to SHOPPING! Ah hello credit cards and craziness! I have always loved to shop but now with the better bod, things fit...designer WEAR! PRICEY designer WEAR$$$$$$$$$$$ I am afraid my CC might BLOW UP!
How do I stop? Gen, any suggestions?? I remember you and the bras and VS, Jcrew and Athleta!
Is there a book on this??
Do I not deserve the new clothes? I have been wearing crappy PLUS SIZE - non designer wear for years and always dreamed of fitting into "regular" clothes! I am even buying soon sizes and clothes I can take in when!
Someone PLEASE justify this for me or tell me STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
What I struggle with is his selfishness! Damn! Why? I know a lot of guys are but his is painful! What brings this up you say? Well my sister has asked me to go to San Diego with her in July for a few days and I have been arguing with him cause he thinks I shouldn't go. He says we should go as a family. Uhh, do do brain...a lot more affordable for one of us to go rather than a family of 4! We are already booked for Toronto and Montreal (don't get too excited...a hockey tournament and visiting with family - not an ounce of chilling!) in a few weeks but hold on, he goes to VEGAS at the end of May!
YEUP! All 4 of his buddies and I helped him book everything. PISS OFF! So wrong. Its so easy for him to go and enjoy himself but when it comes to me, its always questionable! So not fair. I only ask for a few days away chillin by the pool. Oh yeah, he is not a pool sitter - more like a cat - afraid of the damn water! And when we go on family vacays, we are always running around doing things and its extra special when all 4 (mil is always vacationing with us by the way - widowed and her dumb ass daughter never takes her anywhere!) are staring at me with what's next! Yes, all the pressure is on me to plan and make sure everyone is "good"! I never get to just chill! He doesn't do any of the planning and then complains when we do things that I like! WHATEVER! My mom wants us to go to Puerta Vallarta at Spring Break next year...they are paying for accomodations and he is already complaing! WTF? Done! TIRED of his BS!
Sorry I am rambling...trying to get the whole history in!
We even attempt to go to the Okanagan in the summer for a few days. I really like it, a ton of friends for us and the kids and we all have a blast. You lounge by the pool, drinks, walk and just chill. Guess what, he doesn't want to go back. I am not arguing with him anymore. He has now brainwashed my son as well and I gotta hear it from him. I am gonna finally be stubborn on this one and not go this year. He can maybe feel bad for a minute or so! WHo knows, maybe I am just wasting my time and it won't even phase him!
So back to San Diego...looks like I am not going. I don't have the energy to fight him anymore. I guess the saying is true..."gotta pick your battles"!
Wow, it definitely feels so good to put it out there. You are all a blessing in my life. Someone to listen and talk to!
Ladies and gents, life is hard but we can do it! We are lucky to be breathe! DETERMINED!
Monday, May 10, 2010
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Friday, May 7, 2010
Yeah, I know she has done it the conventional way but who in the world can live off that food??? I tried it and lasted 5 days!!! Enough with the ads already!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I've been afraid to eat any solids just in case! Its been liquids. Had a yummy strawberry banana vivanno smoothie from Starbucks and then I made a delish corn chowder. Filled it with everything. red peppers, corn, bacon, potatoes, onion and cod. I had a bowl full but still felt hungry so for dessert I had an ice cream cone. Went down with no problems. Will see how the morning goes when I am usually tighter. Tomorrow night is dinner at my MIL's and her food isn't as band friendly and of course I haven't told her!
Its finally beautiful in Vancouver...off I go to enjoy some time with my kiddies.