OMG I can finally eat!

2 weeks of no fun....it was insane! I went and got an unfill yesterday and instead of 5.5 cc's there was 6! Where the hell did they come from??? LOL!

It was pretty rough! Amazing how we can take eating for granted sometimes and it def puts everything in perspective! I have lost 90lbs and I am getting the..."ok you now have lost too much" comments! You can see it all in my face!

Im at 142 and working on toning and getting my body strong! I love seeing the transformation and the muscles growing....makes me happy!

I look back into the past year and a half and think what a rollercoaster of a ride it has been and I have no regrets! I got my life back and I will take every breath I can to live healthy and happy for the rest of it!

Its a beauty of a day in the westcoast...gonna go and play in it!

Cheers to all you hot and sessy peeps!

I CANT COMMENT....

On blogger....anyone else having problems???

The BITCH is BACK!

Hi y'all...so sorry for my absence! Its been a crazy couple of months!
Just dealing with my dad's health issues (replaced knee) and its been insane!

Its definitely taking a toll on my mom and the whole family!

The weather in Vancouver hasn't been the best but today its sunny and we will take it!

I miss you all and look forward to catching up on how everyone's doing!

Life and the band have been pretty good...a few ups and downs along the way but I dont want to ever be the person I was Feb 23, 2010! One day at a time...

Cheers to all you sexxy peeps!

I fell in love...

With California and ROB LOWE!
Yes, ROB LOWE!

We have been to Cali so many times but this time was just so much better. I was happier, which meant we were all happier! I was able to walk around Disney with no issues and I was able to walk down Rodeo and do some major damage and had a blast doing it!

I also got to meet Steve Martin and Lorne Michaels on Rodeo! I was shaking for over 10 minutes! Insane!

Our new fave place to eat is Chipotle's! Oh my...absolute delish!

Finally got back after 10 days of bliss, come home and decide to watch my PVR'd episode of Oprah with Rob Lowe on it! My, oh my...I have a crush and a hard one! I went and bought his book and the new issue of Vanity Fair! I just keep dreaming of his real teeny, tiny grey briefs! My husband is all ok with it cause he reaps the rewards :)

Ive been trying to keep up with the blogs...right now my life is feeling a little BLOGGED! Crazy ass busy time of year!

GO CANUCKS GO!!!!!!!!!!!!

C-A-L-I-F-O-R-NEE-I-A!

Back in 2 weeks!

Going to Huntington Beach!! Write a comment if you know of any great restaurants or places to see, things to do!

Happy Easter!

Is it possible to CLONE myself???

This past weekend has been freakin HAIRY! 3 birthdays, 1 retirement dinner, hockey and swimming lessons....SERENITY NOW! Then I get a call last night that my Dad was admitted to the hospital for his knee again. Has a fever and it is swollen. Not a good sign. This will be the 5th operation on his knees!

So today I am in a mood and plugging away...stressed and irritated and then I get a call from my sister! She's at another hospital for severe stomach pains! Attempting to leave work early to go see her. She is all by herself and that would suck HUGE BALLS!

Its another jam packed week! We are booked for Cali for the 21st for 10 days...I pray everything will be ok! Hope you all had a fabulous weekend!

Scar Tissue...

Does anyone have any where one of the inicisions was?? I have one underneath my right breast bone...I knew I wasnt going crazy! I can feel something! If so, how did you deal with it? Thanks!

BON JOVI ROCKED THE HOUSE!

Oh yeah...he still looks hot and is in great shape!

Almost three hours of pure bliss...rocking SOLID!

Still alive and plugging along! Trying to keep up on all your posts!

Counting down the days to CALI!

GAS sucks!

Not just the cost of it but the feeling!
Man oh man, last night I was on fire!
Took some Gas-X and even a softener...I know, not the best convo!

What do some of you hotties do for this occurence???

I can actually eat fruit now, so I may have to start incorporating more!

TGIF all you sessy HOTTIES!

Jealous of NEW YORK BOOBS!

Jealousy is not one of my favourite traits...BUT DAMN I wish I was in New York with the HOTTIES! One day...

I forgot what it felt like to eat a real meal...

YEUP!

A small unfill .50cc's has made all the difference in the world!

I was able to eat salmon, mashies and salad! Oh my gawd, it was delicious!!!!

I even had a lunch date with my honey and had the best parsnip soup!!

Soups,Smoothies and Saltines...

Are getting old!
Down to 152lbs...YEUP! That's 80lbs!
Going for a small unfill tomorrow...a little nervous cause my last one was in May 2010!
I need it...I went to the doc for my GERD and I got some meds - feeling better but I can't eat a solid thing and my whole body hurts! I must be lacking in some sort of nutrients!

Last night I even did the choking waking up thing...scared the crap out of me!

WE are also going to Cali next month and visiting family and I want to be able to eat something...SOMETHING! This isnt the way I wanted to do it and now I feel ready to increase my work out and watch WHAT I eat!

Keep you posted!

Freaky FRIDAY!

Or shall I say TGIF! What a week it has been...
Nothing compares to the sound of devestation that I woke up to this morning with the people of Japan! So sad...

Thank you all for your sweet and kind bandiversary wishes...it means the world to me!

I was having a pretty good week but then the last couple of days I have had a lot of issues...and I thinking its G.E.R.D. cause I have all the symptoms...and it sucks HUGE! I finally threw up everything last night and what a relief! I have a doc appointment today to find out what I can do. Also debating whether I should go for a small unfill...IT WILL BE A YEAR IN MAY SINCE MY LAST ONE! What do you peeps think???

Id like to eat a little more but I am losing steadily and now its getting slower and slower...I reached the 75lb mark!

On a happier note I ordered my IPAD 2.0 online this morning...boy was it ever exciting! I can't wait to get it delivered!

Hope you are all having a SUPER COOL week and here's to an amazing weekend!

1 Year Bandiversary!

I've been thinking about what to post...
I then figured I should just reflect on the past year and how my life has changed for the better!

It was Wednesday, February 24th, 2010...7am! I left the kids with my mil cause they thought I was getting an ultrasound. Yeah, I know crazy! My husband dropped me off and by 1:00pm he was there to pick me up! Got home and the rest is history...well most of you have read it! hehehe!

Today I am 159lbs...which is a loss of 73lbs! 73lbs I will never never see again and for that I will BELIEVE! I didn't think it would ever be possible. Honestly...

I am happy where I am...size 10 or 12 in clothes and feeling great! For me it was all about being able to "shop at a real store"! And dammit I can finally do it and it brings me peace! I feel real and alive! I feel sexy and my confidence is back! Just bring it!

Anyone just starting out...just believe in yourself and it will come - one day at a time!
Anyone who is in a rut, just get up and dust yourself off...today is another day!

The compliments keep pouring in...I like it but its definitely gonna take some getting used to. What were they thinking when I was 232????

Here's to all of you beautiful people that have helped me with this journey and for that I will be forever grateful! The sun is shining on the westcoast...turn up the sound, pump on some PINK and DANCE!

I'M back...

And it was pure bliss! One week of no kids, no husbands and just chillin by the pool!

I was pretty tight from flying so I did well with eating wise...wish I could have eaten a little more! I did lose weight which was not a huge surprise since I walked every day with my mom on the beach! Man she is insane...first day I could not keep up with her! I just get all panicky when I am away and eating in front of people. I need to make that stop!

I just realized that Thursday the 24th will be my bandiversary! Oh my...Ill have to start thinking of my next post!

Stay tuned...

Missed you all so much!

Verlos a todos en una semana

See ya'll fine skinny bitches in a week!
Off to PV for some fun in the sun!

Libido OVERDRIVE!

Anyone else feeling it with their HOT NEW BODS??????????????

Me at 162!!

Me at 232!

Esophageal SPASMS!

Ok, this may be what I have...

I just read Roo's post at http://abrandnewroo.blogspot.com/ and she has this and then of course I went and read online. It has to be it cause I have no stones...after a barium, ct scan and ultrasound, they could not find any rocks or ulcer! I had a couple of months of stress, anxiety, and major pb'g! I sure hope this is the answer that I am looking for...

I see the specialist in March...30th! I had one for next week but I had to postpone since Ill be in Mexico! I know, I know!

I was eating a piece of ham with spice and thats what set the pain off...the last couple of days! Feeling better now! I would say a bland diet has definitely helped!

What is the equivalent of Gaviscon in Canada? Do we carry it?

I got the..."how much have you lost"

Yeup! "how much have you lost"??
70lbs? Really? That's amazing...great for you! BUT...

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You are done losing right? Anymore and you would be too skinny!

Too skinny...let's see! I was 140lbs when I got married 14 years ago and no one told me I was too skinny! BUT, when I was 232lbs, I was told...you really need to lose weight for your health!

I am good at 160lbs...I just need to tone up all the loose jiggly parts. I felt great going to the mall yesterday until I went into LULU and tried on some tight workout wear in the bad lighting - wow I need a tan! Going for a spray on Thursday...in prep of my Mexico trip on the 12th!

My heart breaks every time I think of Barbara and her family. One day at a time...

BOB!

Everyone needs one of these in their home or at the gym!
I kicked his ASS!
YEUP and what fun it was...released all my tension and the endorphins kicked in! Of course my trainer kicked mine as well but I had a lot of fun doing it!
Today I can barely sit or get up and down...NICE EH!

My WORD....

BELIEVE

So I had 5 episodes of Oprah to watch this past weekend...Finally Saturday night I did it! I watched 4 of them...and let me tell you, it was life CHANGING! Yes, you heard right.

I cried and cried...tears of joy, sadness and fear watching each episode and each one had some sort of meaning or revelation. It got me thinking that this woman must be some sort of higher being. No I am not crazy, but I got it! We cant find the true meaning of happiness but we can get close to having peace, love and smiles in our life.

Im always thinking in the back of my head that this (the band) is not forever and it breaks my heart....I need to get rid of that fear and the only way I can is to BELIEVE! So I tried it...everytime I thought negative or scared, I just repeated to myself...BELIEVE and holy moly, it worked! IT WORKED!

I pinch myself cause I cannot believe I have you all in my life to support and guide me. YOU PEEPS get me and thats what ROCKS!

Have a beautiful Monday!

The power of the PEEPS!

Its amazing how much this friendship means to me and how important it is to stay connected and to keep blogging as our lives change every day!

I went on line, I posted my upsetting story, then I read your comments and it gave me the strength to go home, sit my husband down and tell him..."I am going to Mexico"! I did it. I felt like a weight was lifted off of me. He didn't give me attitude and we actually had a decent conversation!

Thanks to all of YOU!

So on Feb 12 for one week...Ill be sitting poolside in Puerta Vallarta in my new Juicy suit that I bought last year and tried on this morning...HOLY HOTNESS BATMAN! Mamma is back and in full force! WATCH OUT!

Air kisses to you all!

I actually look hotter in it than she does!

PS. The whole Jesse James and Kat Von D thing makes me appreciate my love and marriage so much MORE!

HURT, TORN and GUILTY!

Yeup thats me!

My parents are going to Puerta Vallarta (its an annual thing they have been doing for so many years) and all these years, my parents have always asked us to join them for a week or two.

I've always had to say no cause we could not afford it and my husband has no interest in going. Then my parents said last year that they wanted to take us all...13 in total but then again my husband did not want to go. Parents suggested a cruise and of course we know the answer to that one. Yes...my husband had no interest. Finally my parents said forget it. Not worth the stress!

He kept insisting some place like California and I wanted to try something new..Hawaii but in the end he won and we will be going in April just the 4 of us!

So back to the point of this post...my parents are going and asked for me and my sisters to join them for a week. All expenses paid. HE DOES NOT WANT ME TO GO.

I'm hurt, torn and I feel guilty that I do not have the strength to fight back. What do I do? Do I say forget it and just go? Do I fight with him? I need some solid advice...

Oh yeah, he and his friends go on an annual Vegas trip without any hesitation and I always tell him with sincerety, "have a great time"! THIS SUCKS BALLS!

Size DISCRIMINATION!

Ok what is the deal with walking into these freakin stores at the mall and I casually and oh so sweetly ask for a size 32 which is comparable to a 10-12 and the dumb ass sales clerk looks at me with their oh so innocent face and say..."sorry we only go up to a 31 but you can try these on and see if they fit...they have a ton of stretch in them"! Oh HOLD ME BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My mouth dropped...I was stunned but then again was I surprised?? After a few minutes...NO! What a total joke. I was almost ready to send the store/head office a letter of size discrimination! Who the hell wears a size 0 anyways????

Happened to anyone else?
Ive worked so damn hard to get into normal store sizes and STILL A BIG FAT NO! Normally I dont use the F word but this post deserves a little profanity!

Wow...

I forgot what it was like to actually be able to eat...CRAZINESS!

I was able to have some chicken, soup and some veggies! Hoping this may help my fear/anziety of eating in front of people! Yes, I think I have that! Anyone else??

So far 2011 has been good to me. I still pinch myself cause I am not on one of those dreadful diets! I cringe a little when I hear my friends have joined a program of some sort. I have been there so many freakin times!

Still not back at the gym but I am getting that itch...yes you heard right! Cant wait to feel the endorphins and get my heart pumping and my body moving!

Hope you are all doing well!

WHAT A COW!!!

I am trying to mean it the most nicest way possible...BUT NO CAN DO!

So here it goes..a convo with my so called best friend:

N: We r trying to save money and eat out less
C: You have no excuses cause someone (my mil) cooks for you 3 days a week
N: Oh yeah I have excuses...2 kids, working full time, hockey, drama, dance, training, drums etc. Should I keep going??? Its non stop! Just wait until your 3 year old has a sibling and they are in school and doing activities.
C: Still wont make a difference cause I wont have anyone to cook for me
N: Yes you will be forced to eat out more cause you wont have time to prep and cook!

No reply after that one...
She gave me freakin chest pains and anxiety! What a total COW!
So freakin jealous, it pains me. Not my fault that I have an amazing MIL and she lives 3 blocks away. We chose to live close to her, to take care of her. They had the option but cause she is a stubborn COW, she lives over 30 minutes away! Oh well...sucks to be YOU!

Sorry I had to vent...I Heart all you BLOGLAND PEEPS!

My money saving month is not going very well! I ran to the mall last night to pick up something that was a gift and had to be exchanged. Well...we know the end of that one. Low and behold I found a hot looking pair of Fryes! Oh so comfy and oh so on sale...fit just right! I had to hide them from the FAM cause my kids have such big mouths! Final sale so I could not return and decided to wear them today. LOVE THEM! The only way I could justify is that my bday is next month and any moola I get I will put towards my freakin credit card!

Watched the Dateline Celebrity Diet thing...TOTAL WASTE OF ONE HOUR OF MY TIME!

Here's to a delightful and GREEN ZONE WEEKEND!

Extreme Couponing...

Did anyone watch this???

http://press.discovery.com/us/tlc/programs/extreme-couponing/

Oh my gawd! Craziness...

It was finally nice to hear the last dude say he donated to charity cause who the hell needs all of that food? Almost like a hoarder with an addiction??? Wouldnt you say??

Its a full time job for those people! I get it but why dont the Charities hire these types of people???

Up here in Canada, we dont get those types of store promotions...but I do like deals and clipping out some coupons! Never $5000 for $250!

I also recorded the ABC program last night Celebrity Weight Loss...cant wait to go home and watch that one! Stay tuned...

Down to 166 and still overweight as per the stupid ass BMI thingy! Soon...